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Happy: Today was my first official day at my new place, so far so good aside from the hill that I have to hike up each day. But for now I’m just going to focus on getting settled in and better aquainted with my new housemates.

Sad: Today was also the day that one of my really good friends left San Francisco to return home to France for a while. It’s harder than I had expected getting use to him not being around. I have many friend but none are quite as spontanious and adventurous as Mehdi. (and if you are reading this, i thank you from the bottom of my heart for your friendship. the castro isnt the same without you) see you soon.

until next time ciao ciao

i think that im going to use this blog to really open up. something that is very difficult for me. im extremely reserved people a lot of the time mistake it for being snobby, but in actuality that im just shy and very exclusive to a select group of friends. it takes a lot to earn my trust and friendship, but if you really want to befriend me most likely ill open up

I wish i could speed up the next few months, I want my next cornia transplant to be over with so that i, for one could see better and two may continue with my degree.( the one thing that truely has been bothering me lately)

ok so ive been back here now for about a year, and to my surprise ive really discovered a lot about myself. im a lot stronger than i ever expected i could be. im self sufficient, i no longer have to depend upon the establishement that is my family. im free to do what i will ( scary but a relief)

THE GAME PLAN

complete my transfer paper work from sac to sf state after my operation. finish my degree in marketing. move to new york for a year( i dont think that i could take more than that. than leave for france maybe the U.K. but most likely france. and finally seek for happiness and love. 

ok so, for the past 5 years my sight had been fading away. it took the doctors 3 out of the five years to figure out what was going on. finally my diognosis was karikatonis; which is when your cornia (eye lense) goes cone shaped and you start to see in doubles and triples with a blinding white fog slowely fading your sight away. for years i had gone to several doctors who spents months @ a time trying to fit hard contact lenses on my eyes which in turn my eyes would reject. i was beginning to get really scared because i didnt know how i was going to get through life blind. finally back in july i went to a new doctor who specialized in cornias. as soon as he looked at my eye he said that i would have to have a cornia transplant. i had no idea that this could be done, each doctor that i had gone to told me that there was no type of surgery that could be done. last tuesday 24 aout 2004 a day that i will remember for the rest of my life, i had the transplant done. i never thought that i would be able to see like this again, i feel like i have been reborn. granted the 1st three days after the operation i was terrified and in pain, but literally after the fog cleared from my eyes, ive been trying to look at everything that i can in detail. people really take for granted what it is to see clearly. i can see blades of grass again, texture in the carpet, my family members faces, and my beloved city SF,CA. i cant wait to return to france to see my other beloved city paris this winter. last summer i was racing around paris trying to see as much as possible because i thought it would have been my last time seeing my city. Thank You God, Dr Sorenson, my mother, and who ever my donor was, i am forever greatful to you all.